Hm, Im not really in a good mood. I couldnt describe how I feel right now. Everyone keep talking about my past, my 'old time' friends especially. So I decided to spill it out here. By writing it down. Yes! I am absolutely stubborn. Im rude sometimes. Im temperamental nowadays. Im spoil brat. And I am rebellious in every way. I want to go out, spend my time outside, hanging around, going for a holidays with friends but my parent they dont really give me freedom. They think it a high risk, yknow. I dont really know why but basically thats what people said to me because my mom love so shes worried something bad happen to me. Thats what people said.
So I did enjoyed my teen-hoods. I went out with group of friends, socializing around, and etc without them knowing it. I know it sounds fun but only at the beginning. After that, Im getting bored. Theres too many things happen. Shit happens which made me realized thats not what I want. Id overjoyed. And alhamdulillah Ive change to someone better well at least I hv start to pray to Allah back and leave my social life behind.
But still its hard to get trust from mama back. Hm, and I still cant handle my rebellious attitude, my rudeness and temperamental *sighs Im not asking much. I just wanna go somewhere I can release everything. Somewhere I can go alone *yes alone. Somewhere I can take many pictures. And mama still not letting me go which stressing me out. :( hm I dont know what to do. Im confused. Should I run way ?